Just For Your Information.

Okay, as I said before, I'm not the one who signed in for this 'blogspot', so I don't give a good attention to this blog. I just forgot that I had a blog. I've just found out that a years ago, that is 2011. So I wrote some stupid stuff and edit the html as I don't know
how to 'blogging'.. I like writing, but I don't have any creative or brilliant ideas to post. Moreover, the internet connection kept going off and unavailable, and I don't talk or write in English. So, I change the blog theme and the font style to something you guys can hardly read. I just get scared if someone reading what I'd wrote. Nervous. Fulling my bladder with urine... Sweating.. Sorry. I think like you guys would feels stupid to reading my stupid post. I just write, and post, because I got some feelings that only robot who would reading my blog. Feels like I'm connecting myself with robots. I'm exploring  the world through the radio and newspaper. Maybe this is called depression. When I was a kid, I thought that there is only my family exists in this world. Growing up, I started to know that there is another family in the world. Then, my brain developed. Another family, another house, another street, another region, another country, another state, another continents, another planet, another universe, and another world. Since then, I never socialize myself cause I'm scared. It's like a phobia. I can't even talks properly to my twin. I can't talks in public, even with my teachers, my friends, my uncle, aunty, cousins, nephews, nieces, and they even treat me like I'm invisible. I'm useless. I just can't find the right person to express my feeling to. I'm sent to the counsellor for like a thousand times! From kid to an adult, I'm still can't cope my lifestyle. Feels like the whole world is fighting over me. I'm falling. Down, down, down, deeper in the dark. What can I do? I'm just stupid useless brat!! T-T
This is just a draft. I wrote this a long ago. Post!