I'm an adult

Hi

I'm an adult y'all. I got a message on this blog that the pages are not being indexed. And that's when I remember the name of this blog. So here I am! I told ma twin about it and we suddenly got a new post from her! 👀

Update: So my army ID is expired. The battalion kick me out of the WhatsApp group during covid because they need active officers as the frontliners. I have graduated and I am a working adult now!

I'm working till midnight. And without extra pay 😀 I have a big project in the morning and my manager wants us to do the project in a different time zone; which means another project at night. 

Anyway I have curse less now but I think I'm more judgemental now than before. Those kinda silent judgement. Means I judge before knowing the full story and I talked without thinking. 🥹 Yes I want to stop doing that. My twin is married but I'm not yet. You see, people around me likes to compare your achievements with someone else's better achievements. Just earlier my little sister came back home and brought home some chicken. I naturally ask, "oh she bought the chicken?" And my mother also naturally said, "Look at your little sister, bringing home stuff. Unlike you" ☝🏽🤨 excuse me mother, did you see how long I was working? Do you expect me to work remotely as in to telepath to my laptop while in the store? Did you not hear people talking at 12:37 am when most of the resident of the house has already fallen asleep? Ok maybe because people were sleeping. My aunt would sometimes drop by and whenever she's here she would summon me to do some physical labor like. I am in a meeting ma'am. I AM IN A MEETING. I AM WORKING. And then you people dare to say I'm a sloth! 🦥 

Well let's stop with the ranting here shall we? I want to write this because the mental health app says to journal. And writing down everything you think of can clear your mind. It does clear my mind in a way. And being here, the cringiness of my past self is hurting my belly. You really are cringe, little me. Don't you go 🤨 me. But see, I felt like enjoying and accepting my past self being weird and cringe. Haha what was I thinking! Little me, the world wide web is not as fun as it used to be. It is still fun but we got AI now and you will be super dependent on it. I was thinking of continuing my study but I'm afraid I would use AI to be my voice. 😥 The world is also very dull. Everything is gray. You got your first course-related job in 2019. Covid emerges in 2020. The Gaza is being attacked on 2021 so you went on your repentance mode this year. But yeah, you are a human so you got baited to evilness again. At the end of the year you took Chinese lesson. 你好大家~我现在特别累。。Your only grandpa passed away at 2022. You got scammed at 2023 and lost a heap of your money. Let's talk about this in another post (if I remember) and you got a remote job at the end of 2023. You went hermit in 2024 and kinda full mode stressed at the end of 2024 thinking of running away. You found some scary stories of cave divers and people "searching for life" in 2025 and kinda repented. But now you're kinda lost. I hope you will get back on your knees and achieve something big at the end of the year. 

Future me, please tell me you did something admirable. Please.

Btw, as komai has mentioned in her post, it does feel like the world is approaching the end....

Cool video/channel:

Scary but sobering: